i am trying hard not to complain. but this week has been HARD. is that ok? i know we have chosen to do this kitchen remodel and it's a HUGE blessing and i'm so thankful. but it's still been HARD. the house is a WRECK because of our kitchen renovation (how does a kitchen being renovated effect the master bath? i don't know. but it does.) kids home from school...but still trying to figure out homeschooling. TOO cold to even GO outside. my body detoxing from sugar and back to paleo (day 10 today. and there will be frozen yogurt tonight. after 10 days of NO sugar, gluten, dairy, anything except meat, fruit and veggies. i honestly can't believe i did it. and i wouldn't have been able to if it wasn't for my friend, leah, texting me throughout the day...) my kids only went to school 2 FULL DAYS this week. this morning was a 2 hour delay!!! we'll get back to this morning later...
even though this week was hard. and we are living ON TOP OF EACH OTHER. and all that, there WERE some sweet moments and i tried to capture some on my camera.
someone got these laser tag things for christmas. they have been a HIT!
what in the world is lincoln doing? classic.
one of my friends in my running group emailed out and invited us all over for a "happy hour" on monday evening...after yet another snow day. i emailed back SO fast..."i'm there!" :-) i drank water (Paleo) but needed the friends more than the alcohol.
and then ANOTHER day off school the next day. because it was "too cold." this was not a pretty day. we've been living in the basement. but this day, the workers needed to be in the basement. and it was in the single digits outside. so we watched movies. and i cried.
wednesday i ran in the coldest temperatures i've ever run in... i was just glad to be out of the house.
and then to send my kids off to school! well, half of them. this was mid-morning. the 4 of us that were at home were in our own little worlds. and so happy.
these 2 play so well together.
one evening, rebekah was at church and joshua was at basketball practice when these 2 were supposed to go to bed. neither of them is used to sleeping alone...so i let them read a few books together. while i took pictures of them :-)
it's a combo that doesn't happen very often...these 2.
yesterday morning, i got in my head that i wanted to paint. and make some cards. it's like i was THAT crazy. and my house was THAT out of order, why not? i had to DIG out all my stuff that was packed up so our kitchen could be in the basement. i was that determined. so they got to paint, too.
doing his homework :-)
learning about our "senses." i've been VERY intentional to NOT do a lot of "creative" stuff with lincoln. i could get WAY into that stuff. and i don't want to lose focus of what REALLY matters right now...OUR relationship. and HIS heart. if i get into "planning" and "being creative", i'll forget the important stuff. this was the first thing we've done that was like this. and it was good. but i'm still sticking to my guns about not being creative. yet. :-)
this is our new obsession...pomegranates. and they are good for you! yum!!! AND rebekah and joshua LIKE seeding them!
so. this morning was BAD. i think we all cried at some point. and the last 30 minutes before they went to school, they were all on their beds. quiet. there was SO much arguing. complaining. pouting. not being able to figure out something to do. following ME all over the house.
so there is no movie night tonight. they are all going to bed right after dinner. and chores are being added to their chore sheets (because they clearly have too much time on their hands...) and they will be given a "talking to". yes, we are all a bit "on top of each other" and all. but this is NOT a hardship. and you can't make everyone around you miserable. it's not ok. we have a warm house. plenty of food. oodles of toys and things to do. their behavior is not ok or appropriate and not a blessing to each other.
i might have walked into walmart this morning with tears streaming down my face. i didn't even have the energy to CARE that they were there.
this is going to be a fun evening...happy friday!! ha!
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oh dear! praying. love you!
we are having the same frickin' day over here - emotion wise....
It hasn't come to canceling movie night...yet....
but dude. it is SO close.
I'm sorry it's been such a hard week. I do really appreciate your honesty though. Because we have days that feel like this too, and it is reassuring to me that I am not alone in my struggles and my failures. And that my kids are not the only who whine and have tantrums, so it's not that I'm doing a terrible job. You are an amazing mom, and so it is encouraging for me to see that you have "mess" in your house too. I hope the weather warms up soon! Love you!
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