Tuesday, September 27, 2016
yes, I had a big of a hard reality check when this day came. but I've quickly come to enjoy and appreciate the time. I made a little "deal" with myself heading into this month. I agreed to 2 things:
1. NOT commit to anything (long-term commitment, i.e. NO "every Wednesday I do this" or "every other Thursday I meet this person") for at least this first month.
2. Don't start any BIG projects that will stress me or my family out
I've seen plenty of people and done some small projects around the house, but I've stuck to my deal and it's been so refreshing!
I can FEEL my heart and mind adjusting. I can't yet HEAR what God has for me in this new season, and that's ok.
each day my goal is to love my family the best I can. i'm meal-planning with actual recipes (which hasn't happened in close to a year), i'm putting jokes in little boys' lunch boxes, i'm praying for each of them throughout my day, i'm getting stuff done so that I can be present when they get home from school and work, and i'm leaving some time with nothing scheduled so that I can listen to a sermon or make some phone calls for Pat or go for a walk with a friend or make pumpkin bread for the neighbors.
it all feels very...awesome. some moments I feel guilty for having the time. I just never have! but i'm choosing to be THANKFUL. and i'm trying my best to be obedient in this season, just like I have in every other season of life God has placed me. charging through a season and checking things off lists like a madwoman comes way easier to me than slowing down and listening and being present. this is truly stretching for me but i'm determined not to jump into my default state of just being "productive". I don't want to miss the things God has for me here.
Monday, September 26, 2016
our weekend was SO full. started Friday afternoon with getting Sawyer's chipped tooth (bike accident the afternoon before) fixed. (front permanent tooth. not that bad. but needed to be fixed...he was a trooper!)
Friday, September 23, 2016
but, for now, know that you are amazing. THAT is my heart's cry for you. that you would KNOW that you are amazing. don't compare yourself to the others that you see on Instagram. or facebook. or blogs. or even to the person that you've made up in your head that you need to be.
BE YOU. who you are today. do the next right thing. you know what it is.
we need to stop looking around so much and just listen to our hearts. listen to what God is telling us to do and say and be. others will always fail us. but His truth NEVER will.
i'm guilty of it, too! it's constant. we have to continually re-direct our hearts to what is true.
have a wonderful weekend. it'll have bright moments. and hard moments. and typical moments. and extraordinary moments. embrace them all.