Friday, October 25, 2013

floundering a bit :: 31 days

hi. it's been a weird week. i'm struggling finishing this "31 days" thing. in all honesty. i've gone back and forth between "just quitting" because i don't HAVE to finish. and truly wanting to finish it out because, well, i just want to! how can i not be able to acknowledge how He loves us every day for a month??

so, i'm here. and i'm not sure where this will go.

i've been floundering this week. maybe the letdown of the tough mudder being over? maybe the ongoing struggles with lincoln that take everything out of me? maybe the fact that i'm injured (strained calf muscle) and it took me 4 days to admit it? maybe the fact that it's freezing all of a sudden and i just want to sleep and eat cookie dough? probably a little of all of it. 

it's all dumb stuff to worry and lose hope about.

it's a real thing to be sad when something you were looking forward to is over.
i will never lose hope that God is doing something incredible in my son's life.
and my injury? we've been down this road before with my hip injury and broken foot. i know it will pass. i just don't handle not being able to run well. not to mention i'm running a half-marathon in 3 weeks and don't have time to NOT run!

despite all my floundering. He is the same. yesterday, today and forever. THAT gives me hope and that's about all i've got today!

{rebekah took that picture of me when i just thought i had a sore muscle and i was still laughing about it}


3 comments:

Abi said...

Looks like it is time to rest. Rest is a good thing. Your body can handle not running and still do the half marathon.

Tisha said...

Love the smile on your face in the picture. Sorry for your injury.

Ali said...

Sorry about your leg!!! Take it easy, friend! All those miles already run will carry you for the race.