3 directions

it's been a couple ugly days. and it's been my fault. mostly hormonal (which is scary) but also a lot of extra things on my plate.

yesterday morning i ignored it all and made cookies for a neighbor and we ate a couple for a midmorning snack on the front porch. it was sweet - in multiple ways! i love these 2 little guys!!!

i've been SO cranky and tired this week. not every moment. but by the end of the day? ugh.
it's been that kind where you KNOW you're being crazy and ridiculous, but you can't stop.
my family is so kind to handle me so graciously when i'm in this place.

i woke up this morning in the same place. but, thankfully, as the day went on, my perspective finally straightened out.

twice i was on the FLOOR begging God for things...one time was out of frustration with myself...the other was in AWE of His goodness! oh, He is so good...all the time!

{i know i'm all over the place here...sorry!}

our family went 3 directions this weekend (planning for all that was part of what made me crazy!)

pat took rebekah, joshua, bailey and sawyer camping. they left at noon today. they were BEYOND excited!!

my mom came at 4 and got lincoln and levi for the weekend (lincoln hates camping. he hates being cold.) they are BEYOND excited!!

when she drove away, my 18 or so hours to myself began (those hours include sleeping tonight...which i need to do soon!) i left immediately to run. i ran the longest run of my life. it was SO ugly. so so ugly. it was HOT, the sun was blazing, i had hardly eaten all day because i typically run first thing in the morning on an empty stomach and i was nervous to eat too much, i had to stop twice to buy a drink and drank 20 oz both times (gatorade the first time, water the second). i had to kind of laugh at how ugly it was...it went along with the ugliness of the last couple days - it seemed appropriate. but i did it. i ran 15 miles!

{i am the sweatiest, stinkiest person when i exercise. it's gross.}

i took a quick shower, ran a couple errands, and am home in my QUIET house!!

i leave tomorrow morning for richmond to go to a shower for my dear friend, ali. and to spend time with DEAR friends. it will be 24 hours of time to be a FRIEND and a GIRL...not a mom. i'm excited and can't wait!