Monday, July 11, 2011

the rest of friday

sorry for the boring titles...

the kids LOVE watching the video of us getting home! "auntie hannah" is yelled about a hundred times! i LOVE the deeper connection that they all have to her now!
i bawl my eyes out every.single.time.
especially this part. i love that you can see him say, "i love you" so clearly.
and then, i looked down and saw this. lincoln's hand on my leg. it was TOO much. just too much.
read this and you'll see what i mean. it's at the bottom of the post. go on, read it. God is SO good.
later that afternoon is stormed. the kids asked to play in the rain. once the thunder stopped, they did. they had so much fun.


this little guy is THE cutest! and happier and smilier by the day...it's amazing to witness...


i brought out the bath bubbles. and the soap. and this counted as baths :-)

and, after all that fun, i was DONE. by the time pat got home that night, i could barely speak. it had been a long week.

and, to keep it real, i was not "myself" all weekend. this is hard. draining. my mind has all of a sudden kicked into overdrive and it's about to do me in. i think that God kept it quiet the first week...which was good. i was just surviving. now, i'm thinking...pondering...and there's much to think and ponder and question and it's dangerous. i KNOW i need to give it all to Him...every moment. but, that's not an easy thing to do. i'm struggling with that right now. and it's weighing me down big-time.

19 comments:

Laura said...

Baths outside in the rain with bubbles and soap. Now that is my kind of multitasking!! Way to make it fun and easier on you!

Amy said...

The hand made me teary. Love it! :)

Tammy said...

LOVE seeing all your kids together...it just puts a big smile on my heart (especially the hand). JUST LOVE IT!!

Anonymous said...

My breath was literally taken away when reading about the hand on your knee...incredible the way things come full circle on His terms. What a blessing.

Your family continues to amaze me.

-Courtney Alexander

Megan said...

Love the hand on the knee...love it.

Katy said...

Oh the hand on your leg. He gets it courtney. He knows he is loved and he is yours! And that means no matter how exhausted or stressed or worried you are, you are doing a lot of things exactly right! I was thinking of your awfully long Dr appts. Thinking how one day the boys will be so thankful that you loved them enough to ccome and get them and bring them to a home where they will be loved and cared for like this! Even the dying duck breathing treatment machine!

Melissa said...

When I was 16 my parents adopted 2 kids from Ukriane at the same time too! It was hard, she joined a moms support group and they called themselves "the crazy moms club".

It was a long road, but today they are teenagers and doing really well!

(((hugs))) and prayers and patients sent your way!!

Mommylove said...

Why must you make me cry EVERY DAY? I am not an emotional person! I went back and read your September post about the hand- God answered that prayer quickly for your new little guy!! So sweet, and I am sure you are so exhausted and wonder how you find time to blog?!

Debbie said...

Don't over think things, Courtney. Just take one day at a time, one moment at a time..For now, do not put pressure on yourself to do anything else than to make sure the kids basic needs are lovingly met each day. You are and will be in survival mode for awhile . Make sure YOU come out of this surviving...even if it means you need to be a little selfish with your time during the day. Pile all the kids on the couch, pop in a movie for them and take a nap/pray/read. Even if they have already had quiet time. If you need it, don't deny yourself right now. They will be fine. Don't put pressure on yourself to make everyday special. Everyday IS special right now because you are becoming a family of eight in the day to day rhythm of life. It will get easier. It has to. The Lord didn't place those boys in your hands for you to free fall into despair, anxiety, depression or any other trick Satan tries to pull when he tries to snare those in the grip of the Lord. Tell him to flee in the name of Jesus Christ right now.

And that hand on your knee is just precious. YOU are HIS mother. Yes, indeed.

Christy said...

ohhhh loving Debbie's words...!!!
LOVE you!

Jeff Acton said...

This is Courtney Acton by the way.. I finally figured out how to leave a comment here, but it is with my husbands old blog.. anywhoo.. all this just to say I had goose bumps when I looked back at your old post. What a blessing. We serve a good God who wants to do good things for His kids! And, I love that you counted it as a bath with the soap!

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Anonymous said...

Courtney- I think you are amazing! I can barely get throught the day with two kids and you are thriving with 6!I have been praying for you all and hoping that God gives you the strength you need to keep on keeping on! Thanks for sharing this journey with a complete stranger(me!) and know that you comtinue to be in our prayers!

Wendy Brennan

Courtney said...

truly...the part on the video where you hug your dad...I cry every.time. I've shown it to everybody who will look at it...they cry too. It's so beautiful. such a picture of God's love. what a blessing.

Katie said...

went and read the post you referenced and was blown away by how good He is! Thank you for sharing that answered prayer!

Sarah St. Andre said...

Flashback post....tear jerker!! :D

Anonymous said...

wow, God is so good. can you believe how your older post came true! God hears all....

anthonyandbeth said...

God is AWESOME! this post made me cry. He is so good. to answer this prayer SO soon after your son is home with YOU!!! and He will continue to ANSWER prayers Courtney!!! keep lifting them up!!!

Cindy said...

amazing grace...how sweet the sound!!! I miss you!! I see Jesus connecting dots for you and answering your prayers..and pointing the rest of us to HIM!! those two hand prints I see soon on your walls;) I see the Lord being faithful to you, his dear Courtney! cling on!!!