a VERY hard day for me.
the boys slept until 5:30 am. which, i guess, is good. it was still dark, so it didn't feel good. but, they didn't wake up in the night. i just woke up a lot hearing their "new' noises.
father's day AND hannah's 25th birthday!!!
went to breakfast and then to play at the playground for a little bit.
got picked up for church. quite the experience :) LOVED when the girls from the church came and took my girls' hands and led them away. when i walked over to the church door to look out into the property just to check on them, LOVED seeing them all holding hands!
spent most of the afternoon crying. this is just all very overwhelming. one of my greatest joys in life is KNOWING my kids. and loving them how they need to be loved. i don't KNOW lincoln and levi - and it's just hard and overwhelming to me. not to mention the new country we are in, the 1 meal a day we eat, little time to exercise to relieve stress, no time to process for my brain/heart that needs LOTS of time to process. i just cried and cried. skyped with my mom and dad - that was good for me.
had a great evening together. we walked to sole luna - which we had been to and knew we liked. it was just us, which was also nice. a little more relaxing for us. enjoyed celebrating hannah!!! in the best way we could.
skyped with sawyer again - that was SO good to hear his voice. when i think about any of his precious features, tears just stream down my face...his beautiful eyes, his long eyelashes, his smile, his cheeks, his warm hand in mine....i knew it would be hard leaving him. but i had no idea how much it would PHYSICALLY cause me pain. he is doing GREAT and i'm so thankful for that!!
realized joshua had a fever and just hadn't seemed "himself" that day....talked to one of our contacts here and she was concerned...said to call her in the morning and let her know how he was doing. this did NOT help me sleep well...
rwanda. i love you. but i'm ready to go HOME.