Wednesday, October 13, 2010
we ARE making progress.
sorry about that last post.
i'm so dramatic, huh?
today continued to be very frustrating.
BUT we made some progress.
sawyer peed in the potty once this morning.
pooped in the potty after lunch (!)
had 2 accidents in the morning.
after his nap, he held it til 7:30!
and FINALLY peed on the toilet.
ALL 5 of us were there cheering for him (pat had just gotten home and i think was wishing he hadn't :-))
i still don't think he "gets" it. and that's SO frustrating to me!
the other 3 all "got it" by the end of the first day.
but, i'm 2 days in.
we had more success and less failure today than yesterday.
i'm not turning back now.
tomorrow is supposed to be a rainy day.
not sure if that's going to be better or worse.
it's been nice to have the older kids play outside in the afternoon while i'm tending to sawyer inside.
i did eat the second ice cream sandwich :-)
i still haven't eaten 1 gummy bear (it's a challenge now...)
i did drive through McD's and get a LARGE diet coke after i got bailey on the bus today.
oh, did it taste GOOD!
after sawyer's success tonight, i got him to bed and left.
i had no idea where i was going.
i just had to get OUT.
i listened to a song that i hadn't heard in a few months.
and it ripped my heart open for my boys in Rwanda.
praying out loud to the Father that can hold them until we can.
and kind of laughing at the irony of me driving away as fast as i could from the 4 children i CAN hold and at the same time aching to hold the 2 boys i can't.
yet so true.
and all those feelings are so REAL.
what a ride.
what a ride.