Monday, June 14, 2010

some thoughts and some conclusions

"In order to know My will, you must spend time with Me - enjoying My Presence."

"I am always with you, so you have no reason to be afraid. Your fear often manifests itself in excessive planning. Your mind is so accustomed to this pattern of thinking that you are only now becoming aware of how pervasive it is and how much it hinders your intimacy with Me. Repent of this tendency and resist it, whenever you realize you are wandering down this well-worn path. Return to My Presence, which always awaits you in the present moment. I accept you back with no condemnation."

"When you begin a day with inadequate resources, you must concentrate your efforts on the present moment. This is where you are meant to live - in the present; it is the place where I always await you."

Sarah Young

"If we want to know the glory of God, if we want to experience the beauty of God, and if we want to be used by the hand of God, then we must live in the Word of God."

David Platt


i need to spend more time with Him.
i need to spend more time in the present.
and less time planning.
and less time worrying.
i need to accept His grace when i fail to do those things.

when i sat down here to type this, i intended to say that i don't feel like i'm "resting" very well.

it's been tricky - trying to "rest" in my body and mind when it's the last week of school and life is still spinning around me. honestly, i have been an emotional mess...crying, cranky, impatient, quiet (i get even quieter when i'm upset). and my body is failing me. my right hip hurts with every step i take. it wakes me up. i'm terrified it's something "serious". i'm even more terrified of how i will handle something "serious". do i need to run more than i need Him??? i know it sounds ridiculous to many of you. but that question has brought me literally to my knees more than once. how did i get to this place??

so, i'm seeing that maybe, just maybe, i am resting a bit.

i KNOW He is talking to me.
and maybe i'm actually listening.

i am so thirsty to hear Him.
so i'm going to take a little break from here.

i'll be back soon. don't worry :-)

11 comments:

Julie said...

hugs and much love to you dear friend. I pray that you hear Him amidst the chaos of everyday life. That he whispers how much he loves you as you are cooking dinner.... that your kids draw you closer to him through their smiles and Pats hugs. Enjoy this time. Praying for you....
and eat lots of guacamole, enjoy your diet coke and your time in the Word... preferably while doing all three at the same time :)

Amy said...

good luck.
I'll miss you. :)

Holly said...

good idea...
you'll be missed but we're so on board...
praying for your heart, your hip, your mind, your family...

Peyton said...

I am all about you resting and enjoying the present! Will pray for you that you are able to really do it. Have you ever read any Corrie Ten Boom? She is such an encouragement to me, "Tramp for the Lord" is one of my favorites. I really think you would like her books. God is teaching, preparing, molding you for something, I am sure of it. If you don't learn the lessons now you will just have to go through it again (I always remember this in my own life after I have not learned the lesson) Love you friend, I think you are awesome.

Ali said...

I am praying for you! Being in pain can be all consuming and reminds us that we really aren't in control. It is so frustrating. I am so sorry dear friend. i pray God heals you quickly and meets you in your resting.

Alden and Dorian said...

I so appreciate this post Courtney. God wants us to walk with Him....we so want to do just that....yet we walk away....not intentionally, but through all we need and want to do. Oh how easily we lose sight of why we are here on this earth. Thankfully, He brings us back to Himself through many different things....keep listening. Keep loving.

Alden and Dorian said...

P.S. Loved Julie's words. :_)

Alden and Dorian said...

P.S.S. Really loved everyone's words....

Tisha said...

Enjoy your time, listening and hearing. Praying for you.

Tammy said...

thanks for those quotes...they hit home, especially the one about planning...it is so true. I am sorry about your hip. I will be praying for complete healing. God is just hunting you down...and you are being responsive.

Heather at Blessed Little Nest said...

good for you for taking time to hear Him when he speaks to you.

and thanks for joining in the fun over at my blog. i hope your day is a happy one!