Monday, November 17, 2014
oldest brother willingly, of his own accord, reading to youngest brother? so precious.
i so desire to live FULLY each day. but i want my days to reflect HIM and not me and therein lies the rub. stepping back to let Him shine forth is what rings true right now. i am more comfortable in days that i get to RUN forward, but a life that echoes His heart isn't often a comfortable one. and i'm uncomfortable these days just waiting and just listening and just soaking Him in.
i've framed a picture every fall of our kids...whoever they happen to be that year. they are all lined up on this piece and it takes my breath away every time i look at them all. so many memories. so many years (!!)
but still...drawing out their hearts like we always have, listening to them and watching them like we always have, and letting them be who they ARE like we always have.
and also...not getting to replace the batteries they asked me to (6 times!) until 2 days later, and giving them an impatient response because i chose to stay up too late and was grouchy, and maybe wanting them to be quiet instead of play so loudly (even though they are playing nicely!)
but it's our family and we are thankful for it every day. we are a mess but we love and forgive and keep trying every day.
a marriage is made up of 2 people that are constantly changing and growing and learning...individually and as a couple. if you aren't intentionally trying to learn about each other's hearts and dreams as those years and changes go by, you will have hard time connecting deeply. there are sweet, "easy" seasons and there are hard, deep seasons...and everything in between. soar together through the easy ones...and hunker down TOGETHER through the hard ones. the key is to be TOGETHER...and you'll come out that way on the other side! we're in the middle of one of those hard ones but we are holding on and trusting Him to help us love each other well through it.