i have never been so sporadic with blogging. ever. even through babies being born. or traveling to third world countries...this is crazy! but i have to dump some stuff out of my brain and document our lives. so here we go.
friday night i SAT with the kids and watched a movie. sawyer was in my lap (always). and i looked down and saw my grandma's hand. that's what i remember her hand looking like (but she was 60 and i'm 36...scary!) i LOVED those hands of hers. i have such sweet memories of them. what i wouldn't give to sit down with her...
we were totally dorky and decked ourselves out in krochet kids and createdforcare and sevenly stuff for church on sunday. we also helped kick off this AWESOME program that we are super excited about and got a GREAT response from!
"I have a dream that one day... little black boys and black
girls will be able to join hands with little white boys and white girls as sisters and
brothers." Martin Luther King, Jr.
his dream is reality in my family. thanks to him and MANY others!
i've dug as deep as i can this month. between snow days and the kitchen and trying to still figure out homeschooling and planning a big PARTAY for my mom and God using His people to reveal mind-blowing things about myself (trying to find some moments to process that - but, um, WHEN?!?) and joshua's birthday is coming up and desiring to HEAR from Him and LIVE for Him and failing at it so miserably because of some silly life circumstances? it's a GOOD thing i didn't know what this month was going to look like going in! there have been 22 days (as of this friday) since our kitchen renovation started on january 3. the kids SHOULD have gone to school 15 of those days (the rest were weekends). they have gone to school 8 (8!!) of those days.
i'm trying to be thankful in all things. thankful for the extra time with my kids. thankful that we're mostly healthy. thankful for the luxury of renovating our kitchen. thankful for friends to text with and keep me laughing.
hopefully tomorrow will be a sweet day. hopefully we'll sled. hopefully we'll enjoy each other. but we will also have to find time to do school with lincoln (i can't just NOT do school all these days? right? i just don't know!) and i have to make a grocery/menu list for the next week and go grocery shopping friday. and we also have guys coming to install granite. and guys coming to adjust the cabinets and put on drawer pulls. and guys coming to deliver our new floors. and someone coming to pick up our old fridge and give it a new home. and it's supposed to be insanely cold. and i'm struggling BIGTIME to eat the way i should. like, i haven't struggled like this since...?? maybe last spring? just yesterday. yesterday was REALLY bad. today was better. and i'm sure there are things i'm not doing that i should. i have no idea. i have no MINUTES to think past what's right in front of my nose! which at times is refreshing. except that's not how i roll usually so it kinda makes me panic a bit.
ok. i have NO idea if this makes sense. but my head is about to explode and i'm just going to hit publish. hopefully i'll be back sooner than later. but with my track record this month, we'll see! my heart misses this place. it really does.