Sunday, December 1, 2013

a new page

on the eve of the first day of homeschooling lincoln, i feel the weight of it.
we are turning, yet again, a new page.

our family is weary and bleeding from the last few months and we need healing. i see it in their eyes and feel it in their spirits.

the journey we've chosen doesn't look how we thought it would. but we trust it's His path and we will keep walking forward. this fork in the road appeared a couple weeks ago and i'm tempted to doubt that it's been there all along. should i have seen it sooner?

either way, i saw it and we are taking it and we're trying not to look back.

He is leading us, yet walking with us, yet carrying us all at the same time. only Our God could do that.

healing is what we seek. love is what we need. the rest will follow. i KNOW this. but believing it by doing it is my struggle.

i love this:

"I used to hope for things like understanding, acceptance, tangible help.
But life is a spider-web and the solution is more simple and profound than I could have guessed.
It’s love. The kind that believes the best and encourages audacious living. The kind that shelters fiercely and flings shocking grace. The kind that points the mirror at myself and leaves it there.
It’s the kind of love that swerves to miss the sanitized comfort of the known and aims straight for the ditch."

Shannan Martin

3 comments:

Ali said...

PRAYING for this new page and wish i could offer some heat too. I hate being cold!

Unknown said...

I think it is awesome you have prayerfully made the decision to homeschool Lincoln . I have found Bryan Post's website to be very helpful for attachment issues. Also....does Lincoln have a box of food? A box to keep in his closet just for him to "have" that will always be there and never go away? Something with nonperishable things that he isn't really going to eat, but he is just going to "have" so his little mind knows he has this box and he will never go hungry again. I get that he's well fed and cared for. But, he's a damaged boy and all the rules and guidelines may be too much for his broken heart to handle. I will be praying for the 3 of you to navigate this path and The Lord to lead you to someone who can give you some great strategies to help Lincoln! Again, I think you are making an excellent decision to homeschool him. Keep on going.....I know the road is tough! :)

Liza said...

Can't wait to hear how today went!

And I'm curious - What does Lincoln think about the switch? Praying that it is a joyful day for both of you.