i have no idea what this post is going to be about.
i am learning. a lot. and it's painful. i know i will continue to learn and grow my entire life...but once "adoption" and "orphans" and seeing the world through His eyes became a part of my daily life...once those things became my heart's constant cry, the learning and growing has been fed with fertilizer or miracle-gro or something. i welcome it, i embrace it, but it's painful.
i can remember being 10 years old and waking up waking up in the middle of the night with growing pains. my body was growing so quickly THAT IT HURT. it was painful.
i think i learn something. and realize quickly that maybe i didn't really. He teaches it to me in an even more real way that makes the previous way seem elementary. i am being vague on purpose. because He uses His children to teach His children. and often we cause each other pain...and this teaches us about Him. it teaches us that ONLY HE can love us purely. ONLY HE can protect us in the shelter of His wings. ONLY HE can fill us with hope when it makes no earthly sense. ONLY HE can offer peace amidst constant chaos.
i am learning. and it is painful. that about sums it up :-)
3 comments:
Adoption is tough. A lightbulb moment for me was hearing on a video from Karyn Purvis that this journey is a marathon, not a sprint. I knew that. But hearing that...then I *knew* it. It helps me on particularly challenging days.
We went to the Passion concert tonight in charlotte and one of the songs hit me o er the head with truth that I think would ne soothing to your heart these days. Will send it tmw. Love you friend.
i have often asked for it to not be so painful, but we know that when we learn to trust God in the pits of life that is when we really experience who He is. It is the beauty in the ashes that bring true joy to this journey.
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