re do

i have such a hard time really engaging with my kids some {most} days.
there are so many of them. and so many other things to be done {that i KNOW aren't as important. but they DO have to be done sometime!}

the other day sawyer asked me to play the princess game with him. for whatever reason, everyone else was actually doing something else {everyone was home...just elsewhere} i said, "yes!" it's so rare to have a few minutes one on one with any of them.

so, we played.
i took this picture.
and at some point checked my email on my stupid phone {ugh} and got an email from our agency saying they needed this document that we forgot to send in {the paperwork never ends...still trying to finish up our 12 month post placement report} and needed it notarized. it was 4:30. i knew if i could email it to pat right away, he could get it notarized before he left work. sawyer and i had maybe 3 minutes left to finish the game. bailey walked up and said, "can i play?" i made the horrible decision to say, "sure! you take over for me!" and walked away. WALKED AWAY! for what?!? i went to the computer and emailed the document to pat. bailey and sawyer got in a fight about the game and ended it before anyone won. i felt sick. what a STUPID decision! could i not just finish the game??? would that 3 minutes REALLY have mattered in getting the email to pat? no.

so. it took 2 days. but sawyer and i had a re-do. i'm not sure it was as sweet. or which time he'll remember...the one where i couldn't even finish the game? or the one where i did. but, either way, we finished a game together...and hopefully i'll make a better decision next time.