Sunday, September 11, 2011

crash

ugh.
i'm really not good at this.
it WAS a good weekend.
we had SO many great moments (really, if i'm going to be honest, i just loved being with pat. the best moments happened when all the kids were sleeping :-))

i thought things were "going well"...

famous last words.

if this afternoon/evening are any indication of the week ahead, we are in T.R.O.U.B.L.E!!!

right now?

thinking of waking up to all of this tomorrow morning and the next and the next...seems like i might die. i know i need to give it to Him. i just don't want to right now. i'm TIRED of all of this. being ON every.single.second is SO exhausting!!! and he is SO LOUD!

pat just stopped me and put his hands on both my shoulders and looked in my eyes. and i said, "WHAT are you doing?" and he said, "i'm just trying to calm you down." and i said, "I DON'T WANT to be calmed down! this is WORTH being worked up about!!!" he smiled that smile and let me go on my ridiculous way...

just saying...

2 comments:

Katy said...

Pat. He's a good one. Love him for knowing just how to love you. Which sometimes means letting you go on with your ridiculous self! :) I, my friend, are thankful that God put the two of you pb the same team. Don't forget that. You aren't alone in this! He has your back.

Joni said...

Isn't it so nice to hear that other people are feeling the same way that you are? I had those same feelings today - is this really the rest of my life? Am I never going to feel completely comfortable with my family again? plus a billion more questions. Surely it will get easier :)