i haven't said much "real" stuff the last few days...honestly, because i don't know WHAT to say.
i am SO thankful for my children. for the 4 i've had since birth. for the 2 that we waited and prayed for and traveled across the world to bring home. SO much to be thankful for. so so much. i am trying to focus on that.
but, right now, there is grief. it is deep. i don't have words for it. i'm not going to make it go away. i've learned enough the past year or so that that doesn't help or work. i'm going to pray my way through this. and He will use it.
i am not trying to be vague. i just don't know what to say.
this is not easy. but it is still amazing and beautiful. only He can make that true.