Saturday, January 22, 2011

i just don't want to forget...

some of these moments the last couple days:

::sawyer was in the bathtub and i went to his room to get his towel. when i walked back in the bathroom, he was standing up and kicking the water ALL OVER THE BATHROOM with a huge smile on his face. basically, trying to see how far the water would go. i loved it. it was so "boy." i've had it easy so far with joshua...he's just not your typical "wild" boy - he's pretty mellow. sawyer is definitely a little more wild - and, so far, it's fun! :-)


::bailey brought her poetry journal home for the weekend. they have a poem for each week of the school year. when we got home from school on friday, it was just her and me...rebekah and joshua were both at friends' houses, and sawyer was sleeping. i was standing in the kitchen. she brought her poetry journal over and climbed up on the chair at the island and opened to the first page. she was sitting on her knees on the chair. there are like 15ish poems in her journal. a few poems in, she stood up on the chair. i put my arm around her as i stood next to her and we read the poems. a few more poems in, her arm was around me and she was basically IN my arms. i loved how she got closer and closer as time went on. and i loved that i was able to read every single poem with her with NO interruptions! such a gift!

::i was laying on the couch. sawyer climbed up, snack bag of cheez-its in his hand and sat on my stomach. lately, as long as he's ON me, he's fine. kinda drives me crazy, kinda the sweetest thing ever. as he sat there, and we "talked" and smiled at each other, i reached up and put both my hands around his middle. they just fit. i could hold his body in my hands. and, it hit me, again. this little boy, that is my baby, will one day be a man. this little boy, that i can hold within my hands, will one day be so big that i won't be able to pick him up. it's hard for me to picture any of my children as adults. but, especially my boys. i don't know how to "make men!" it's an overwhelming thought, if i'm honest. and, it hit me all over again in that moment. today is one piece of the gift i've been given as their mom...to grow them to be the adults they will be one day.

just some things i didn't want to forget. :-)

1 comment:

Alden and Dorian said...

Ahhhh, so precious each of those moments. Love that will have those "memories" in writing down the road. LOVED Joshua's b'ball pics and can't wait to BE at one of those games soon. His smile was so cute....and loved the shot he made!