update

i just emailed this to a friend i haven't talked to in awhile...i thought it was a good "snapshot" of life these days...

we are finishing up soccer and baseball. i'm training for a triathlon. bailey fed sawyer vitamins the other night and he threw up every 15 minutes for 2 hours - SCARY! swim team starts next week..every.single.day. i love it. but it's a big commitment! school gets out june 18. RBC is moving in August to our new building and i have a lot of commitments/responsibilities with the nursery...especially with the move. pat and i are trying to start an orphan ministry at RBC. we have an AMAZING group of people (4 couples) that we are meeting with/dreaming with about it. exciting! our paperwork is en-route to Rwanda...my arms ACHE to hold those 2 boys of mine over there. yet i know His timing is perfect. the kids are all good...each has their own challenges - rebekah's love for ALL people convicts me almost daily, joshua is still so hard to read but he's had a GREAT first year of school, bailey tries me in almost every area every day and i think she must be so sick of me reminding her what she SHOULD be doing and then tells me over and over "i just love you SO much, mom!" and all the frustration melts away, and sawyer is so so cute but so so whiny and fussy and i can't believe he's almost 2 years old! pat and i are good. really good. yet i want us to be GREAT...so i'm always striving for that. i've been reminded recently to NOT stop doing the "little things" to show him i love him. life is so busy that i just assume he knows sometimes. i can't do that. he is the perfect husband and dad for us and i want him to KNOW i feel that way EVERY day. my mind never stops. at any given moment i'm thinking about: our goals for the summer, how to make the project for the girls room, what color to paint the bathroom, how to teach my girls to be modest and my boys to be respectful, what to make for dinner...today and next wednesday, praying for friends and things they are going through, needing to be on the computer for "work" (nursery, email) stuff but not wanting to lose time with my kids, where is God calling us? what is He asking of me today??