unsettled

i'm unsettled today.
torn.
between lots of worlds.

back to real life - and all that means.
i did a pretty good job of "ignoring" it all until this morning...and the list just keeps growing and growing...

so many people that i love so very much going through such hard things.
i hate it.
i want to FIX it.
yet i know that's not the best thing sometimes...to just FIX things.
the process is ohsoimportant.

and i want to hold onto the calmness from last week.
and savor these beautiful days of spring.

some more goals for this week:
*be consistent with my kids...especially bailey and sawyer
*be patient with my kids
*look my kids in the eyes when they talk to me
*think of others before myself

these goals aren't as tangible as the ones i shared earlier.
nor are they as easy.
but they are even more important.

but i know myself...and i have a hard time doing these if i don't do the ones from this morning
{am i weird?? is that weird??}

still nothing in the mail.
ugh.
it was a really nice break last week to not have to deal with that disappointment each day.

sorry...that was random.