watch out!

i think i just had a coherant thought.
which means "it" might be passing.

did you know i hate being sick?? :-)
i hate slowing down.
i pretty much never learn what i'm supposed to during times like this...that's it's ok to slow down and not get everything done. that just doesn't resonate with my personality.
when my body shuts down, my brain does too...i can't think about or process anything bigger than, "where is the kleenex box?" and i hate that.
i love reading and thinking and praying...it's such a part of my day and i miss it.
maybe as much as running?? i'm not sure...that's a close one...

i can't wait to feel better.
and laugh.
and run.
and do MANY things in 1 day.
and have the brain power to ask deeper questions of my kids than, "what do you want for dinner?" chips and rotini noodles with parmesan cheese? "sounds fine to me!" :-)

i said to joshua at lunch, "you guys better watch out once i feel better!" with more enthusiasm than i think i've used in days. he looked kinda scared and said, "what's going to happen??" i didn't know what to say. besides laugh :-) which i also haven't done in days.

i think they kinda like this pace...they got to watch a whole movie this morning and i just laid on the couch {which is probably why i'm actually feeling a little better right now, huh?? you have NO idea how hard it was to just lay there! ugh! ali...i thought of you often...}

but i can't stand it.
and look forward to normal days again soon!!!

pat's still sick.
but at work.
still not sure what is in store for him....