right. {very sarcastic tone}
don't let your baby sit in the stroller for even a second without strapping him in.
even if rebekah's bike got stolen out of your garage.
and you can't even remember the last time she rode it so you don't know how long it's been gone.
but you're trying to look in the paths in the neighborhood for it because someone said they saw one but you're almost late to swim practice so you don't strap him in (stupid!)
and it was great having to square my shoulders and own up to what i did to the
WHOLE NEIGHBORHOOD while the wound is all fresh and still pussing and bleeding.
fun times.
and thanks lady that was walking by with her 2 babies in her stroller and just shook her head at me.
no, i'm not trying to manage getting 4 kids out of the car and into the pool for swim team practice.
i could use a hand.
maybe even a smile.
but you just have a good walk and keep on shaking your head.
like i don't feel bad enough every.time i look at his precious little face.
but.
he could have landed on his front teeth.
i think that would have been worse.
i couldn't handle that again.
"please, Lord, can you give me a new mom?"
i'm humbled.
had to look my kids in the face and tell them,
"this is MY fault. because i made a BAD choice, Sawyer's face is hurt. because of me. THIS is what could happen if you make bad choices. it doesn't always just hurt you. it hurts others too."
he is still the cutest thing ever.
and still smiling.
i guarantee i won't sleep much tonight...
23 comments:
courtney! i so feel for you! i'm sorry that this happened. the good news is he'll never remember it happened and will love you just as much anyway! :) i'm sure he'll enjoy the pictures one day and it'll be something you all talk about..."remember when mom didn't strap Sawyer in...." :)
if it makes you feel any better, when Harrison wasn't quite 2 he had on a coat that was WAY too big for him and we were outside on our porch putting up Christmas lights. he was wobbling around and ended up sliding down the porch steps NOSE first! he seriously looked like Rudolph! these pictures take me back! :) i felt terrible for him and his whole nose was a scab for Christmas. that made for some nice photos and one Christmas memory we'll never forget. i felt so bad too because i was more concerned about getting my Christmas lights up JUST right than taking care of my little man. it's tough to get it right all the time...and we won't will we?? :) you'll remember forever to strap him in now!
Let yourself off the hook, it's not that bad, it's tough being a mom of 4 and a mom of 2...HA...piece of cake. This will be the first of many falls.
Don't beat yourself up so much about this! Accidents happen and this is what this is. I know you are very hard on yourself but you don't need to be. I hope tomorrow you feel better and as Michelle said this is the first of many falls.
Poor baby and poor WONDERFUL mommy!
Oh Courtney... dear sweet friend... STOP KICKING YOURSELF!
We have ALL been there, even the lady walking by with the sneer, she's done it too. All 4 of my kids, yes ALL 4, no I didn't learn my lesson after the 1st or the 2nd OR the 3rd!... have all fallen down the stairs, as crawlers, when I KNEW they were mobile.
I don't have posed/formal pictures of Sam at 2yo b/c I kept waiting for his face to be bruise free! HA, double HA!HA!
Seriously, yes, you goofed but we all have all done it. You were able to use it as a VERY clear object lesson for your older kids and that's a Rom 8:28 thing. :)
i'm sorry courtney. but really, i just want to beat up that mom who was shaking her head at you.
are you kidding?!?!
he doesn't look too traumatized!
we all do those things sometimes!!
Oh Courtney! You are a wonderful mother and ask any of your kids, they think you're still in the running for Mother of the Year! Even Sawyer... just look at those smiles!
Tomorrow will be better. And the next time you see a mother with her hands full, you will know how she feels and be more likely to stop and offer a hand. (Not shake your head at her. Ugh!)
so sad! If only you can forget as quickly as he will.
hang in there, friend.
poor mommy!
(and he looks just like bailey in that last pic).
we all have those moments. it's likely because you are used to doing things so well and you had a brief lapse that resulted in nothing major- check it out; he's even smiling.
4 kids. usual brilliance. one momentary incident resulting from the giant balance you have going on amidst your deep concern for another child's bike.
i think you might be missing all the positives in this story. you are a brilliant mother. brilliant.
Look at your baby! He's the one who giggles with glee when you walk into his room, right? He's probably really praying, "dear Lord, help my mommy to feel better because I will never even remember this happened. It's not so bad! She feels way worse than I did about the whole thing." I don't know, it looked a lot to me like that was what he was saying.....
what Tisha said ;-)
I want to find that lady and pound her. you are the best mom in the world, I hope I am half as good of a mom as you are and your kids are so lucky to have you for their mama.
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh, my dear precious daughter and sweet baby Sawyer. I am so sorry.......that must have been so scary. I love you. Our kids grow up in spite of us...that is for sure. We do the best we can and that is for sure. Forgive yourself, Courtney. Tough, tough day for you I know.
so sorry that it happened, but like you said have to watch them all the time...He well not remember it, in a few weeks. hugs to you all aunt kim
Sweet Courtney, You already have so many comments and I just wanted to add that I love him smiling at you throughout those pics and you teaching your kids about choices and how they can affect other people. You are a great mom and I pray that you remember that. I am sorry about Reb. bike getting stolen too, I had mine stolen from our garage as a kid and that stinks! HUGS
I'm with Cassie. Lemme at that other mom ;-)
praying for you as you begin your day today. praying that it goes better than yesterday. praying that you have a GREAT day with each of your kiddos today! praying for your sweet sawyer and his ouchies (as paige calls them). praying for rebekah about her bike. you are a terrific mother and all 4 of your kiddos are blessed to call you mom! also praying for that "other mom" because if she had actually stopped and offered to help you out and talked to you, she would have realized how much she could actually learn from you! just praying for a smooth uneventful day for you today and that you feel God's calming grace an extra amount today!
I'm still voting you mom of the year when I send in my ballot. I agree with everything the rest of the commenters said, even the part about praying for the mom who shook her head at you. I think I saw her when I was out with my two burn victims earlier in the spring. At least a few times!
Good for you to teach your kids a lesson through this. It is likely one that will stay with them for a while. Who knows what bad choice by one of your kids will be prevented when they think of mommy's bad choice and how it hurt Sawyer. And like everyone said, Sawyer already seems to have forgotten about it. And as for you, you learned a lesson too. Forgive yourself and move on, Jesus already did!
Courtney, don't be so hard on yourself. We have all been there. You love your children and it shows every minute.
Love you, Susan
oh my gosh!!! I love you so much Court...NO he does NOT want a new mom cause he's got the BEST mom in the world who manages to do more than 4 moms combined typically do...and stinks to the woman who shook her head...her own insecurity thinking that avoiding mistakes equates to good parenting. It does NOT!! We are all in this together...making mistakes, locking babies in cars (yes, I def did that!!), letting them play with dangerous objects while we're unaware, etc etc etc....its all part of it, and we LEARN from each other!!!
You are absolutely amazing and I just love you and your honesty so much (did you notice I did NOT post about the time I locked Kallen IN THE CAR??!!!! def couldn't face up to that one!)
Went to a brunch where an author Shawna Niequest spoke, and recommended a book called "the Blessings of a Skinned Knee"---she said its one of the best parenting books she's ever read :)
I'm sure I'm just re-saying what everyone else has said :) LOVE YOU!
You know what I was thinking as I was looking at those picture???...He's so cute! Seriously adorable, boo boo and all! It happens and it will heal!
Christian was probably just a tad bit older than Sawyer when I forgot to strap him into his stroller. We were in a store and I was focused on whatever I was shopping for and Christian was screaming his head off. I kept telling him to quiet down and eat his snack (without looking at him). This went on for a few minutes and finally a woman came up to me and said "for heaven sake I think he's choking." I looked down and Christian had slid down under the tray that goes across the seat. His head was pinned against the seat and the tray. His feet were dangling and his neck was caught. Oh it was awful. I'm surprised they didn't announce the "worst mother of the year award" over the P.A. system in the store. Thank goodness the store security video tape of that little incident didn't end up on the news.
oh my word - i'm half cringing and half laughing and the way you posted all of it. good grief - people say and LOOK the most riciculous things/ways at you, don't they? poor sawyer - i'm totally surprised that with as much climbing out of things that callie has always done, she hasn't ended up sporting that same look!
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