Friday, September 5, 2008

pressing on

ugh.

i have failed so many times the last 2 days....so much going on...

rebekah's birthday
bailey's birthday
a 1 month old that eats and poops and cries constantly
rebekah's first week of school
pat's long work hours
and getting ready for a week away

any ONE of those things - fine.
but all of it together, in the same week, has made me a bit crazy

i've failed to keep things in perspective
i've put the "unimportant" things in front of the "important" things way too many times
and i hate it. i hate it. i hate it.

i lay in bed and remember the many times i said, "in just a minute" and sometimes even forgot and never did what i said i'd do "in just a minute". i replay all the impatient words i spoke. and i pray that they forget. that they forgive me. and that that's not what they remember their mom for.

so i press on.

and i pray i learn from this week.

so that maybe next time (there WILL be a next time) i can handle it better.

3 comments:

Katy said...

The GREAT thing is that you have a week coming now that you'll just get to be doing the important things - no laundry, or homework, or birthdays or errands or distractions - just your precious family and friends to enjoy. So enjoy it!!!

jenn said...

(and to add to Katy's comment)...AND YOUR TOES IN THE SAND!!!! :)

Julie said...

I am praying you have a great trip! I pray that the kids have fun and let you relax. Hang in there friend and enjoy the week and I will pray you enjoy the week back too when everything gets into the swing of things...

Did Tim and Chari go too?