let's be honest

i am honest on here. always.
i try to be as real as is "appropriate".
this is my journal and scrapbook and photo album. so i try to capture it all. the good and the bad.

but, i do try to "chin up" a lot - i admit it.
kind of like, maybe if i say it, i'll believe it.

but, i'm going to be brutally honest for a minute.

i'm tired. physically, emotionally, spiritually.
not BEYOND tired. just tired.

i didn't do a very good job resting today.
every minute this weekend was busy, stressful to me, counting minutes and tasks.
i did enjoy little bits of it.
but i wish that i had enjoyed more.
some of that was my fault by choosing to be stressed.
and some was bad choices in the use of our time.
but some was just life. circumstances.

and this will be our life.
we've chosen (and God has blessed us with) this "large" family.
we love to care for others. give to others. be with others.
so life will be busy. and stressful. a lot.
and i need to make some better choices. and i need to rest a little more.

i just don't like going into a monday morning feeling this way.
i'm praying for His mercies that are "new every morning."
and i love that i KNOW that that promise of His is TRUE. i can count on it when i wake up tomorrow morning.

what i do with that is up to me.