...my life that is.
i have a hard time knowing how "real" and "honest" to be.
i don't want to act like everything is great when it doesn't feel like it in my heart.
yet i know that my overwhelming day with 4 healthy kids is NOTHING to complain about...especially to those who might give anything to have a child.
i try to find the balance here. to be real. and to be thankful. (and i pray that is a reflection of what's in my heart.)
so, today is hard. there have been some loud, stressful moments. (i literally screamed at the top of my lungs - not AT anyone - just SCREAMED, because Bailey spilled an entire bottle of Vitamin water all over the floor i JUST mopped...Pat came running as if someone just walked in our house with a gun...and it was justified. i totally overreacted. but i've been about to "snap" all day - and that did it. we laughed about it.)
but there is a place deep within my heart that is so very thankful, so very content, so in LOVE with the life God has given to me. and it is that place that keeps me going.
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If it helps, we all get it. And we all understand because we've been there.
yep. keep it real. love that. and that scream thing...i get it. even with just #3 arriving, i truly felt like it took SIX WHOLE MONTHS to get back to a real life. that's a long time. so i get it. that's all. and we know you still love it. your life, your kids, having a baby, having a big family. there will be days like that!
Happy Monday! thanks for being honest. it makes me feel like maybe i am normal (or at least someone else is as "weird" as i am :) )! hope that you day/week goes well with Pat gone a lot. i will be praying for you guys.
kim mattes
you do a GREAT job at keeping it real. i am so encouraged by your "realness" and willingness to share your heart. it is what i love most about blogging - we get to peek at each other's days, see that other moms have the same struggles that we do, and be encouraged by other moms' good moments to. so be encouraged - because you are an encouragement to me...even in your screaming moments! :)
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