i feel like i'm suffocating. does any other mom ever feel like this?
the responsibility of raising these children "well" just seems to weigh so heavily on my heart that i feel like i'm suffocating.
pat and i have spent a lot of time talking and praying for our kids this week...and just the time spent focusing on them makes me see how much there is to be concentrating on - physically, emotionally, spiritually, academically - it's overwhelming to me.
i know, the "right" answer is to say that i hand it over to God and i trust Him with them - which is ultimately all i can do.
but this morning, i feel like i'm suffocating with the love and concern i have for them. i feel so very incapable of being the mom they need me to be. and, at times, i just want to crawl in my bed and let someone else do it. but i know that would last for about 2 minutes before the heart in me that beats so very strongly for them wouldn't allow me to give up.
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I can completely identify.
I feel like that and Caroline is only 3 weeks old. I keep reminding myself that she is ultimately God's daughter that he gave me to raise so he is going to have to show me how to do it. You do such a good job Courtney, you are the best mom. I want to come live with you for a month so I can take notes for when Caroline gets older.
Some times love can do that to you, it's amazing how powerful it can be. On days like that it helps to think about if I love my children that much imagine how much God loves them and me and you. He would not have blessed you with the care of these particular children if he did not think you would love them as such. On those days when you are weary with concern and love just continue to pray and keep the lines of communication open with him because he will bring you not only comfort and peace but, strength.
Plus all those hormones, which by the way he gave you, are a trip, and I can totally relate to that!
Courtney, I feel that me often than not and I think if you didn't feel that way it wouldn't feel right. We just take every day and do what is best and God will take care of the rest. You are such a great mom and your children are beautiful individuals. Never forget that!
Yes of course I have felt like that. That's where God comes in and enables us to hold His hand as we walk through this journey. The priviledge is a HUGE responsibility, and drives us to our knees to pray like noting else. Youre doing a GREAT job - you and Pat are WONDERFUL parents and are loving them and leading them to love the LORD the best way you know how.
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