a little space

well. it's the beginning of week 3 of school. of this new season. i've been gentle with myself these first couple weeks, to not put too many expectations on my body and mind. to listen and then do. or not do.

i'm finding that what i'm bending towards is creating space. in every aspect...in my home as i try to clear out clutter and things we don't use or like...in my day as i try not to overcommit to things...even in my body as i try to make sure i'm going to fit into my jeans when the weather turns :/

i'm creating boundaries and making choices to this end. no texting/email from when the kids get home until after dinner. no nervous eating when i'm overwhelmed by how to parent them all.

and i'm listening. a lot. reading and praying. a lot. He is showing me clearly where He wants me. and where He doesn't. things aren't perfect...they are actually really hard. but i have a peace and a trust in the One that i know is in control of it all.

i want to get back to writing. it helps me process things and take them from my head and heart to my hands and feet. i feel rusty though. even sitting here typing this out feels disjointed and rough.

but rough or smooth, i need it. words make things make sense to all the thoughts jumbled in my being so i will keep using them.

i'm thankful for a little space in my day to finally get back to writing here.

{the view from my bed. where i took a NAP with this extra space a few minutes ago! yes, it was as glorious as it looks :-)}