lincoln is 6 {tomorrow} but we celebrated today because we'll be at a swim meet tomorrow!
he loves to be silly :-)
food is a hard thing with lincoln. usually birthdays are full of, "what do you want for birthday dinner? what kind of cake do you want?" but we focused on things other than food. similar to a drug addiction, or even a diet coke addiction (what?? i wouldn't know anything about that ;-)) it just isn't wise to
focus on the one thing that is a huge stumbling block to the person. but, unlike drugs or diet coke, you can't eliminate food completely! it's the first thing people want to do for kids to make them smile - give them candy or cookies or treats...but that's such a hard thing for our family now. tricky stuff.
i made his cake while he was resting. and hid it for the afternoon. i wondered about that. should i put it out smack dab in the middle of the kitchen like i would do for everyone else? i felt a bit guilty.
until, after dinner, i did bring it out. for the next hour, while we were waiting for pat to get home, he.did.not.leave that cake. everyone started by the cake...thinking it was happening soon...
but then they quickly realized it wasn't. so they left. played a (made up) volleyball game with a balloon. went to the basement and played kickball. lincoln stayed with his cake and stared at it, touched it (i kept my mouth shut. it was his cake.)
i realized that maybe i had, for once, made the right decision by keeping that cake hidden most of the afternoon. it
consumed him once he saw it.
singing happy birthday to him :)
and opening his cards and gifts.
he loves to be celebrated, for sure! :-)
his birthday is hard for me. even harder than levi. we have a bit of a picture of levi's birth story. we have nothing for lincoln and that is hard...just a black hole. i have no picture of what his first moments (or days or weeks or months) in this world were like and that's just hard. all the way around. i can ignore that fact most days, and just look to today and look forward. but on his birthday, those thoughts come to the forefront of my mind and they are hard.
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i think we you are mama to a mix of bio and adopted kids the birthday thing is even more bittersweet. loving and praying for you today friend.
We always hide the cake until right before. I try to make it special, so it's usually a big reveal.
Jeb's birthday is the hardest day for me for all the same reasons....it's like my mind can pretend the other 364 days of the year, but not that one day. I get it.
I am so loving your mother's heart for Lincoln. What a journey you have had sweet Courtney and what an amazing story you will have to tell those boys some day when they can truly understand the love of God through your heart. I am so thankful to have been a small part of this walk with you and to see you grow through good times and bad, hard times and sweet moments. You are a mom to 6 wonderful children who will always look back at the time you spend with them making their days fun! Love you:)
Happy Birthday Lincoln. I so understand this one. It is hard.You are making lots of right decisions.
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