pain

we have stretches of days where things are pretty good.
trust is building on all sides.
and peace settles in.
there are just moments of pain.

{"pain" - it's the word i use. i can't even describe it. a friend asked me to the other day. i stumbled and eventually opened my mouth and nothing came out. if you've been where we are, you know. if you haven't, i don't even know how to describe it. but pain seems to encompass a lot of what "it" is.}

and then there are days like today. it's been less than 4 hours. but it's already been a DAY of pain.

these are hard ones.

when i literally feel sick to my stomach. and question and doubt and run back to Him a million times over.

we'll get through it. that is helpful to know - now that we've been through this cycle many times.


and it will be fine, even good again.

but we do have these days and they are hard.