orphan sunday

today is orphan sunday.
we have 2 sons that were orphans, but are no more. {just a few pictures that i found of our sons...being celebrated and held and loved and in a FAMILY}

i'm tempted to feel like we are failing at this today. it doesn't seem to be going "well."

but isn't that how we all feel as parents?

across the board, everything with my adopted sons feels like a "bigger deal", every decision feels magnified and like we should weigh twice as many issues as with our biological children. so, i guess it makes sense that the feelings of failure are also magnified.

i want to post some beautiful quote that makes everyone want to adopt a child.

i do believe with all my heart that God has called us to care for the orphan. His heart for the fatherless is woven through the Bible from beginning to end.

and, while i have seen some beautiful, "easy" stories of adoption, i can only speak from our experience. and what i know is that it is a long, hard road. it's like trying to walk up a rocky hill with someone, but you both have broken legs. it's messy. and sometimes feels impossible and like you won't make it. and some days just one of you wants to go, but the other doesn't, so it doesn't work. and some days others find you on that road and they carry you for that day...and you maybe even see a glimpse of the top before the treeline covers it back up.

but i choose to believe (mostly because otherwise i don't know how it would go on. and, simply, it's called FAITH.) that the view at the top of that hill is going to be breathtaking. and worth it.

whether we make it to the top isn't really the goal. (although i hope it happens.) ultimately, we are choosing to obey what God has asked us to do. He called us to care for the orphan, and this is the road He led us to. He is with us and we give the end result to Him.

what road is He leading you to?