Friday, May 4, 2012

ugly ending

pat's gone tonight. again.
so dinner was frozen yogurt. i made them pick one healthy topping (of three).
i tried to be a fun mom even though i was beyond tired.
but then all they ended up doing was arguing and complaining.
so they were all in bed by 6:43 pm.
after a LOOOONNNNGGG tirade by me about their behavior. that i'm sure all they heard was,
"blah, blah, blah."
but i pray they heard more. i actually had a couple good little conversations with a couple of them as i was putting them to bed. usually WE pray for THEM as we kiss them goodnight. i had THEM pray for themselves. that was good for tonight, i think. i saw into their hearts a bit...

they weren't ASLEEP then. but they were in bed.

i had work to do. i tried to do it outside for awhile. but my dumb connection kept cutting out and making me MAD. so i had to come in. i needed to be productive. it WAS nice while it lasted! (notice the monitor to keep an eye on a couple of them...)
i'm screwing things up more than i'm accomplishing anything at this point...so so tired.
so, i think it's off to bed for me.

an ugly ending to start off a busy weekend!

so thankful that God created days to end with NIGHT and SLEEP and REST!

3 comments:

Christine said...

These nights happen a lot in my house. The arguing seems to never stop, I lose my patience and then I lecture. I think I have even tuned out to my own lecturing a few times, so I doubt it's getting through to them. These are the nights that I tell them that I need them to spend some quiet time in their rooms before they go to bed and just spend some time with their thoughts. I love them and want to spend time with them, but I need my sanity!

Michelle said...

don't beat yourself up, we all have those HARD times, but you will seeds of your hard work and exhorting is part of the process of building children of character. Mom needs a break too.

Deena said...

LOVE this post because it sounds just like my life!!! I have a husband who travels a lot, and I definitely spend many days and nights trying to be a "fun" mom only to end up being the grouchy, "blah, blah, blah" mom! Thanks for keeping it real!
***I also love what you said about how nice it is that God created days to end with nights and sleep!