it's always on a sunday. and i clearly remember standing in church that morning, and feeling OVERWHELMED with deep sadness. i could FEEL the pain that were in other's hearts around me.
those that were missing moms.
or yearned to be moms.
or had painful relationships with their moms.
mother's day can be such a painful "holiday."
ever since then, i spend much of mother's day praying for those that are hurting.
i didn't, though, expect it to be me today.
such strong role models.
today was a sweet day...filled with homemade notes and lots of hugs. pretty perfect!
there are 2 less children in the world without a mom today, and i'm overwhelmed {in a good way!} with the fact that He chose ME to be their mom!
i'm overcome with grief that they will never know their first moms.
i'm sad for the day to come that i will have to answer those "hard" questions.
they call me mom. i'm not sure either of them fully grasps what that means.
i took lincoln in my arms this afternoon on his bed.
i looked him in his eyes and said, "lincoln, i LOVE being your mommy. i will ALWAYS be your mommy. forever and ever. i love you."
he didn't seem to get what i was saying. but i pray it gets into his heart.
4 comments:
If there was ever a mom to wish a happy Mother's Day to, it is you. Imagine, the day when they DO understand what "mom" means. I think though, that for them, especially Lincoln, it will be even more powerful. You CHOSE him. You sought him out. You worked (hard) to bring him home. He remembers what it was like before you chose him. Those days will come, my friend.
I love you, dear friend. And thankful for how HE is using your family as his hands and feet to not only Lincoln and Levi, but your four other precious children too.
Happy Mother's Day! I was reflecting back that last year you only had their pictures. So thankful they are in your arms now.
I hear that. And I think.choosing.to reflect on the gift that these two boys' lives are forever changes is awesome. They WILL understand one day and will be overwhelmed too.
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