there was a relatively small number of us that were adopting from rwanda. i don't know if you remember, but a few months after our paperwork arrived in rwanda, they closed to any new files. so, there was a definite number of families that were waiting (about 150 at the start) for our children together. that was in august of 2010. i remember the day vividly.
some of those families are still waiting for the children they have prayed and waited for for YEARS.
we have our sons home. even on the hardest days, i do NOT take that for granted. why us? and not them? that keeps me awake at night.
and every time one of them posts or announces that their file is closed. done. it is like a "punch to the gut" (as another adoptive mom put it). i don't forget the wait. or the fear that it might never happen. the doubts. the pain.
i'm just grieving with them today. grieving broken dreams. instead they have broken hearts. and mine is broken for them.
1 comment:
Oh thank you so much for your concern, but please don't loose sleep over what God is doing. At firs I wondered why did God get our paperwork to Rwanda one day before it closed, just to have us wait two years and then move us someplace else? But I am coming to realize that he wanted to teach me about player and the power of prayer and fasting. He wanted me to pray for other families, and for Rwanda these past two years. I never would have prayed and fasted as fervently as I have the past two years if I wasn't right in the middle of it. I am honored to be used by God and to have the opportunity to grow so much closer to him. So don't worry God is right in the middle of this, and please don't ever forget the power of prayer!!
(ps we haven't officially had our case closed, we will wait one more week then look at our options and make a decision)
Pss I have so enjoyed following your blog these past two years :-) thank you.
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