lent::ponder

{me and levi. and the ring i've been wearing since day 1 of Lent. i bought it when i found out i was  pregnant with rebekah. it's her middle name.}

today you get my words :-)

i cried until i thought my eyes would pop out of my head this morning. i still have the headache to prove it. i think i've been holding that cry in for weeks. i thought i was being strong to hold it in. yet, i feel so much stronger now that i got it out.

but it's not because i shed all those tears. it's because, as those tears fell endlessly, my self did, too. i bowed. to Him. even in Lent, i still try in my own strength. and get frustrated that i don't see or feel the results that i desire. i want to love. and no more cravings for things not of Him. but if that happened, would i still seek Him in every moment? no. so maybe i should be thankful for the cravings that force me to bow.

when i am weak, He is strong.