{maybe slightly dramatic...}
but i made a fatal mistake and opened the bag of halloween candy - ugh! STUPID!
in other news:
i can hardly walk today. my shoulder hurts from where i fell? no idea how that happened.
i felt fine {mostly} running this morning. but as the day has worn on it all seems to be setting in and hurting more.
good thing i don't run on wed mornings.
bailey is at a friend's this afternoon. and the house is so much calmer. i love that girl. but she sure does add a whole HUGE dimension of drama and noise! quite a few similarities between her and lincoln in that way. for some reason, i feel guilty when i feel relief when i have a break from lincoln's intensity. but i don't feel that guilt with regard to bailey. just one more level of the complexities of this life i am living.
sometimes my breath is taken away when i truly take in all that i am blessed with. wow.
3 comments:
Oh my gosh. I TOTALLY understand what your saying about the guilt and the breaks. You're so right - there is such complexity in this life we are living post adoption! I feel absolutely fine getting refreshed by a break from the children I birthed, but guilty for the refreshment that comes from the break from the adopted kids. It's the weirdest thing. Thank you for putting it into words. :-)
I broke into our candy yesterday too. It was necessary. Now I'm just waiting for Cary to find out and say something.
"for some reason, i feel guilty when i feel relief when i have a break from lincoln's intensity. but i don't feel that guilt with regard to bailey."
Oh my.
Hm.
I have never thought of this but you know what? You are right!! I feel so much guilt for feeling relieved when my intense adopted child leaves, and feel NO guilt when it's my intense bio that does.
Hm.
Something to think about...
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