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this week. wow. arriving home from the beach. hearts full from being with friends and each other and the week going SO much better than expected. hurricane didn't amount to much here. thankful for that. friends that we were at the beach with went home and their power went out and a tree fell on one family's house and the power is STILL out. thinking of them all.the.time. heavy, concerned heart for multiple other friends. first week of school. the kids weren't nervous. they came home SO happy. giddy, even. i was just sad. but the second day there were no tears from me. we will find a new normal and it will be good. looking forward...not back {most of the time anyways.} making progress in spooning grace onto my heart instead of guilt when i fail. again...look forward, not back. dentist appt for me this week. i'm sure i will need another crown. i have horrible teeth...and i DO take very good care of them! levi has a monthly dr appt. where they take blood from his non-existent veins. it's horrific. i almost completely gave up diet coke before we went to the beach. drank it at the beach - just 1 a day. and just don't have the willpower to do without this week. i also can't stop eating. out.of.control. ugh. i am so tired right now i can't feel my body. seriously. i think it's that "good" kind of tired. but, i'm not sure. it's that bad. rebekah turns 10 tomorrow. 10! what in the world?? 10 years ago right now i thought she would NEVER come out of me. she was 5 days late. i was so so ready to meet her. spent most of today getting ready for celebrating her tomorrow. me and the 3 little boys are going to go to the school and eat lunch with her. that should be...fun...right?? bailey's 6th birthday in on monday. we are throwing a party for both of them for all our extended family on saturday. about 20 people. it's going to be so fun. if i can get to the parts that will make it fun. WHERE does my time go?? i have like 1 minute a day to get anything done! walked up to the school this afternoon...the kids love playing up there. everyone rode their bikes except levi! it's a hill the WHOLE way from our house to the school. and sawyer's little legs aren't very strong. so i pushed him on his bike AND the stroller with levi in it the whole way up. fun. they played on the playground. rode their bikes around the track. i looked up at one point and joshua was all by himself on the baseball field just swinging a bat. i went over and pitched the ball to him. pretty sure that was his highlight. until all the other kids one by one trickled onto the field. i loved it when it was just the 2 of us. we are beyond blessed by friends. a friend was on my doorstep when i got home from picking up the kids yesterday. she was holding a large diet coke from chick fil a. just because she knew it was a hard day for me. we are STILL getting meals! and these sweet friends even offer to pick up ADDITIONAL groceries for me! {we can NOT have enough bananas, bread or milk. i ALWAYS think i buy enough and never do.} my kids love each other. i just love watching them interact and take care of each other and play together. i LOVE having a big family! when bailey got home from school today she just talked and talked and talked. she would even ask and question...and then answer it herself! it's so fun that it's a 3 day weekend coming up!

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