it feels like WAY longer than that!
i know i would be amazed if i looked back on all that's been accomplished in these 4 days.
but i don't have time to look back.
i'm going to start each post with prayer requests for the near future.
many are asking for specific prayer requests and we are thankful...we can use all the prayers we can get!
prayer requests for may 5, 2011
*that i would be able to sleep - it's just not good for anyone or anything if i don't get sleep
*that our boys in Rwanda would feel HOPE
*that i would be able to meet everyone's hearts...Pat's...Rebekah, Joshua, Bailey and Sawyer...and, that when i can't or when i fail, His grace covers my shortcomings
we've started receiving gifts from family and friends and it's so humbling!
my brother and his family came over last night. it was so great to see them all! their excitement means the world to us. we LOVED sharing the boys' pictures with them. and they brought some fun things off our registry!!! it makes it all feel VERY real!
i ran 3 miles this morning! my foot felt fine. but i wanted to DIE. it's so frustrating how i could run 12 miles 2 months ago without even thinking about it and now i can hardly run 3 miles. but, you know what, i could care less about that, too! well, truthfully, i do care a little bit about that. i just DO love to run. but, i care WAY less than i would have a couple months ago! but, everything pales in comparison to the JOY of our boys being so close to coming HOME!
{the kids opening packages that arrived today!}
MUCH to think about and do and process.
lists all OVER the place.
i have a pad of paper by my bed. i filled 2 pages of it through the night last night. in the pitch black, i would roll over and write whatever i thought of that i needed to remember to do in the morning. there was writing on top of writing. but, it helped to get it out of my brain and onto paper.
but...somehow, through Him, i've been able to keep my priorities straight.
first...my eyes are on Him. if i've learned ANYTHING this last year, it's that i'm NOT in control and HE is. He is the Author of this story. and it's so beautiful. i'm keeping my eyes on Him and just ready and waiting to see what's next.
second...Pat. we have to stay strong. we have our moments. but, mostly, we are great and i'm so thankful. he's amazing.
third...my kids. this is huge in their lives. i'm staying very attuned to them and their moods and what they say and what they do. everyone seems good and excited at this point. but...i am watching closely!
fourth...me. i have to stay as rested and healthy as i can. i'm taking a sleep aid again tonight. i have to sleep. i'm forcing myself to eat even when the butterflies are so many that i don't think i can. i'm exercising because it's good for me AND i love it.
bailey seems to have gotten pat's bad cold. she was asleep before 7 pm tonight. poor girl...
probably won't hear anything definitive for a week or so. i wish we would know sooner, but we know it WILL be soon and i'm choosing to be good with that.
1 comment:
What a GREAT post Courtney ~ very informative. It is helpful to "see" it all so we know how to pray. LOVE where you are and your heart....good job! LOVE Sawyer doing so good in his big bed...and Joshua loving have a "roommate". Tears came. Loved seeing Phill and Christy...and the other packages that have come. People caring and acting. Much more....but loved the post so much. Love also your perspective and how God has changed you in the last year. AMAZING. Much love to you this evening....as you are prayerfully.....sleeping!
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