spent time with new friends.
and shared in the JOY of some friends' receiving their referral for a baby boy late friday night!
such praise...in this long, hard process...
drenching, rainy sunday yesterday that was the preface to a gorgeous sunny day today.
a dark, rainy day makes a sunny day that much brighter!
he asked her if she was ok.
and she flashed him her gorgeous smile and said, "yes! what do you think is the matter??"
she seemed totally fine...there was just something about her eyes...
at 7:30 last night, i regretted making her eat her whole dinner as it started coming back up.
and proceeded to every 20 minutes for the next 12 hours.
oh...such a sad night.
my heart was broken for her.
i would have taken it away and done it myself if i could have.
watching your child suffer is the worst. THE.WORST.
and look at you with those eyes that say, "mom? can you make it stop?"
and i can't.
all i can do is rub her back and give her sips of water and look her straight in her sad, sad eyes in the middle of the long, dark, never-ending night and tell her "i love you."
i think we've made it through the worst.
{although i kind of feel like i got hit by a truck...i've never been good at all-nighters}
now she just keeps saying, "i don't feel good..." and i'm sure she doesn't.
her little body has been through the ringer as the rest of the family slept and restored their bodies during the night.
i spent a lot of time praying for her last night.
and for many of you.
for those that have to watch their children suffer daily.
and for the families in rwanda that are waiting to hear if the children they have pictures of now are theirs! {they had court on friday and should the ruling today...}
i also spent a lot of time being thankful for my job.
for the fact that, yes, i had a list of stuff to do today...but i can easily change it all and now my job today is:
"take care of bailey"
8 comments:
oh Courtney!
oh Bailey!
praying for you both today - hang tight.
and we do have amazing jobs, don't we!?
ohhhhh MY...oh so sorry courtney!!!
Oh Courtney, Will is sick today too! He woke up puking. I think he took comfort in knowing that Bailey is at home sick too, watching shows. :) We prayed for her today after I read your blog. Hang in there.
oh sweet bailey. praying today gave you BOTH some needed rest. GREAT perspective though - how much we have to be thankful for that we CAN be the ones to rub their back and let them lay on the couch. needed that.
"my heart was broken for her.
i would have taken it away and done it myself if i could have.
watching your child suffer is the worst. THE.WORST.
and look at you with those eyes that say, "mom? can you make it stop?"
and i can't.
all i can do is rub her back and give her sips of water and look her straight in her sad, sad eyes in the middle of the long, dark, never-ending night and tell her "i love you."
might this be the Father's heart for you these days?
sweet bailey. how privileged she is to have a mama like you.
now, go take a nap.
=)
r
sweet...sweet bailey...feel better soon!!
praying for good sleep for ALL of you tonight!!
xoxo
what great perspective courtney! hope the sickness leaves your house before it hits another kid!
hope she is better tonight. praying for rest for both of you.
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