did you read my friend, robyn's, comment here yesterday??
if not, here it is...i LOVED it:
"my heart was broken for her.
i would have taken it away and done it myself if i could have.
watching your child suffer is the worst. THE.WORST.
and look at you with those eyes that say, "mom? can you make it stop?"
and i can't.
all i can do is rub her back and give her sips of water and look her straight in her sad, sad eyes in the middle of the long, dark, never-ending night and tell her "i love you."
might this be the Father's heart for you these days?
things are looking up.
all beds are clean and all food is staying down :-)
my heart is SO heavy...and at the same time, so grateful.
there is pain and heartache and unwelcome surprises everywhere i turn...in our adoption journey, in others' adoption journeys, in sicknesses of children WAY sicker than little stomach bugs, in confusion as friends' steps of faith seem unsure...it just all seems too much sometimes.
i need His peace - because only HE can make these things GOOD.
and He will.
in His way...in His time {oh, that part is SO hard for me...}
moving on.
looking up.
{and, once again, the menu of "rainbow pancakes" is going to get pushed back another night...i just can't take the thought of cleaning that out of sheets and carpet...}
2 comments:
Sometimes I think we forget he is also the (triune) God of Genesis 1-2, the one who when 3 hit, gave up everything to rescue us.
As moms, I think we get it. All of us. We would give anything to help our babies- those who are part of us and who we brought into the world for relationship and life and love and companionship.
I think we moms (and dads) get it.
But sometimes I wonder if we forget that even as the moms (and dads), we are also still the Kids.
And He (They- the perfect, triune, unified God) gave up Everything for us, and refused to have it any other way.
I can't wait for Lent to start tomorrow.
&You are an amazing mom.
oh i LOVE what robyn said yesterday. how very true. i think that's part of why God decided to bless us with children. to give us a deeper understanding of Him as our father!
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