Thursday, December 30, 2010

thank you

thank you for all your sweet comments on my "perfect peace" post.
really.
i appreciate your love and prayers and advice.
this is hard to live out "in front of you."

i am not in denial.
i know something "bigger" is going on.
but i'm not ready to go there...to go to the doctor.
i'm not saying it's wrong. or that i might not get there.

i'm just not there yet.
He is carrying me and i'm afraid that if i do something different than what i'm doing {praying a LOT, spending a lot of time in the Bible, talking to Pat and others} that i won't be able to see and hear Him as clearly.

He has me on this road...exactly where i am...for a reason.
i don't know what it is.
i don't like it.
but it is where i am.

i do NOT want to hurt those around me...especially my kids.
that is a valid point and one that pat and i need to talk about/pray about specifically.

thank you.
keep praying.


my biggest prayer is that HE would be glorified through this...

1 comment:

Peyton said...

I love you Courtney. You are a great wife and mom. This is a dark time for you but you WILL get through it and you are not alone. You are loved and supported. Can't wait to hang out with you guys tomorrow.
Ps. Brian is at home this week too, on his blackberry and computer :) guarantee you will see plenty of it tomorrow. Love you friend.