real

for those of you that are impressed
or think i'm amazing.

just keeping it real.

i'm barely hanging on.

my filters are wherever my sanity is.
when someone asks me, "how are you?" in passing...

i say, "do you want the answer you expect or the real answer?"
and they look at me like, WOW. :-)

i'm on the verge of tears.
for no REAL reason other than all that's gone on the past few weeks.

i'm exhausted in EVERY sense of the word.
and trying to be and love and DO for pat and the kids who are ALSO exhausted in every sense of the word.

i'm praying CONSTANTLY.
He's getting me through.
moment by moment.
we are doing fine.
and we will be fine.

but i just wanted to keep it real.
the past few weeks have taken their toll.
and i'm not just bouncing along like some of you might think i am...