Thursday, December 10, 2009

tears

remember how i can't cry?
like, for 2 YEARS?

well, i've made up for it this past week.
i've cried almost every day.

and it was all leading up to today
{at least, i hope it doesn't get worse than today! and pat hopes so, too!}

my brain feels crazy.
my heart feels crazy.

i go from "totally fine" to "crazy in the head" in a split second.
so far it's been when i'm just with pat...or by myself...not with the kids...or when i had 8 kids here this morning...but i think pat's over it.

i AM thankful that i'm crying.
it feels so GOOD.
but every day is a little much...and i don't really have time for it!

6 comments:

Beckysblog said...

Praying for you!

And Pat!:)

Holly said...

oh man.

Ali said...

The month of December can do that to a person. Hope you have plenty of tissues! It was bound to happen sooner or later. Praying for you!

Michelle said...

Let it out, just let it out.

Julie said...

i can relate... and I am sorry. praying for you

scooping it up said...

i know all about the crazy in a split second feeling...