Saturday, July 11, 2009

and i thought i loved you then...

when we were first dating, i LOVED the way you smelled.
maybe your cologne? or shampoo? i don't know...

but that was NOTHING compared to how you smell now...
when you come in from mowing the grass...
or grilling dinner for us...
or after being at the pool all morning...

and i thought i loved you then...

when we were first together, i LOVED when you would hold me.
i thought those chills going up my back were the most amazing feeling i had ever felt.

but they were nothing compared to a hug at the end of one of our days lately.
your arms are a SAFE place...a HAVEN from all the demands and craziness going on around us.
i can go to a quiet place in your arms...even if chaos is going on around me...it helps me to feel in a literal way what it is for our Lord to hold us...and you hold me so well...in so many ways...

and i thought i loved you then...

when we first got married, i loved talking to you and playing games at night and laughing together. i just loved BEING with you!!!

but that was nothing compared to how we can laugh and "be alone" even in the middle of our circus of a family :-)

i love being able to just look at you and you know.
you know what i'm thinking.
and you know how to look back at me and tell me, "stop it!" or "i love you!" or "i know."

and i thought i loved you then...

we were married 11 years ago today.
i am a different person today than i was 11 years ago.
i hope, mostly, in better ways.
i'm stronger {outside and inside}, more confident {in who God made me}, can work through conflict {still don't LIKE it, but i can work through it...}
a lot of it is how God has worked in me and through me over these years...but that is only because this man has been right there...walking with me...loving me...challenging me...helping me...and holding me...

and i thought i loved you then...

13 comments:

Cassie said...

happy anniversary!
what a great tribute. one i can identify with in so many ways.
what a different love now than it was then.
congrats on 11 years!!

veronica said...

That is so beautiful! Happy anniversary!

Beckysblog said...

Ok, first. That me cry.

And second, that song is my favorite right now and I think about it and my husband a lot.

(Cassie was right, we are a lot alike!)

Kim said...

happy annivisery

so good to see all the pictures... you both so cute and family also......

Tisha said...

Happy anniversary to you both!! What kind words for your honey.

jenn said...

Love you guys! Happy Anni!!! :)

XOXO

PS - Love that our dorm room made the post! :)

Alden and Dorian said...

Happy Anniversary you two! Loved seeing all the pictures. :)

Ali said...

Happy Anniversary! That was beautiful.
We love you guys!

Michelle said...

OOHHH, I have tears in my eyes. Your killing me so sweet, Happy Anniversary, and many, many more to you and Pat! Isn't it amazing how God works and just knows.

Katherine Marie! said...

What a magnificent reflection of your love. You have such a beautiful way with words.

Cheers to your incredible marriage!

Katy said...

what a GREAT post. and I thought i loved YOU guys back then!!! happy anniversary dear friends!

anthonyandbeth said...

happy anniversary! what a wonderful post! have you heard that song??? :) i love it!

beckley said...

lovely :)

happy anniversary. hey. i remember that day :) the 2 of you are just lovely.