Wednesday, May 6, 2009

He's got my attention

another "not very good" (BAD!) day.
i screamed this afternoon.
like, "lost my mind" screaming.
i hardly ever raise my voice. seriously.
it was ugly.
i can't even go into the whole story now.
but after my screaming, then sadness, anger, punishment, tears, asking forgiveness (both ways), hugs and more tears later...we're ok.
but God has my attention.

something big is going on...i can feel it in my heart...lots of emotion/confusion/feeling antsy and impatient...not sure what's going on.

but He's got my attention.
i'm not sure yet why...and i'm a little scared...but if i'm in His hands, it's all going to be fine...

5 comments:

Katy said...

you're right - a scary place, but the best place to be. Sometimes it's just a matter of him holding onto our cheeks with both hands (you know, like our kids do to us) to make sure He has our FULL, undivided attention, before He can explain it to us. Love you.

Christy said...

oh girl...love you so much...those days are SO hard and for me come around quite a bit...

but it sounds like there may be something more significant going on??...LOVE YOU.

anthonyandbeth said...

praying for you. i wish i could say i rarely let out a scream. something the Lord is working on with me and has been and will be for a long time i think. :( hope tomorrow is better. it'll be a fresh start. and you're keeping your eyes in the right place...on HIM!

Beckysblog said...

His hands...that's the best place to be!

Praying for you...

Julie said...

praying God teaches you quickly and painlessly... that is what I always pray...and that I "get it" the first time or quickly. Hugs friend