Saturday, March 28, 2009

letter to my family on a rainy saturday with 4 little kids...

Dear Family,

it was a rainy one. from start to finish.
there are times that i wonder why i can't control my emotions, am i really that moody?
and then i realize that i'm trying to control all 6 of our emotions!!!

pat, i'm sorry you were disappointed that your football game was cancelled. you really do look forward to that time. i love that you love it. and i was sad for you.

joshua, i hated telling you that your first t-ball practice ever was cancelled. you've been looking forward to t-ball since...the fall...when we started talking about it. and this week, the first thing you said to me each morning was, "only 4 (or 3, 2, 1) more days til t-ball, mom!" you picked out your baseball shirt to wear for this morning days ago. we practiced outside every day this week. you were SO excited...and burst into sweet, sad tears when we told you this morning. it broke my heart.

bailey, i'm so sorry that you woke up with a fever of 102...and looked like you wanted to die...and just laid on the couch...and didn't TALK! hardly at all (it was very quiet in our house today...a little too quiet...) and we still never got to play the "fish game" (Memory) today...how does a whole day go by and we didn't get to it? i hate that. and i'm sorry.

sawyer, i'm so sorry that you have 2 teeth almost about to pop through and it makes you mad and fussy and cranky and just want to be held but then want to be put down but then want to be held all. day. long. really you don't know what you want and i know it hurts. but my head hurts from all that fussing. and then you just laid your sweet head on my shoulder right before i put you to bed and it made up for it all...{but i AM glad you're in bed for the night :-)}

rebekah, we had a good day. some good conversations. i'm so proud of who you are. as my daughter. and as a sister to your brothers and sister. the note you made bailey was so sweet. and thanks for giving sawyer cheerios while i tried to finish dinner. you are a thoughtful, girl. and i'm thankful for you.

my family, it was a long day. and had some hard moments.
but we had some fun ones, too.
like how we got ice cream before dinner after the errands we ran after naptime. :-)
and then we had a picnic dinner while watching basketball.



and i can still hear rebekah and joshua playing together (they get to sleep in the same room tonight...bailey had to go to sleep...sick little girl :-() i love how much you love each other.

nothing extraordinary happened today.
but it was a good day. and i don't wonder why i feel drained at the end of my days now :-)

good night, sweet family!!

5 comments:

Amy said...

You are such a good momma! :)

Megan said...

Great letter! You will so love to read that 10 years from now. Oh, and give Pat my condolences that his team fell out of the tourney so early this year...;-)

Cassie said...

funny...we had a picnic on a blanket in our living room watching the NCAA tournament, too! i LOVE march madness. we even had the 2 big kids fill out brackets this year. it makes the games more fun for all of us.

Katy said...

this is priceless. i was thankful that we had some sunshine early on saturday - i was without david all day and it made me start to fall apart thinking about the days/weeks/months (please NO!) that we may have ahead of us. The sunshine helped, but I love how you said that you are responsible for all 6 emotions! that's perfect! you're a great mom courtney. really great.

beckley said...

thinking of you. hoping you survived the weekend without total exhausting.
much love,
r