it's gotta get better

**EDITED BELOW

whew.
this day has started off with a bang.
i don't even want to go into it. it's nothing major. just life.
but i sure hope this day gets better and not worse.

and i keep looking at the clock and can't believe so many things have gone wrong and frustrated me in such a short time.
yet...i have so much to do today that i can't wish the day would go faster.

**just a couple details:
joshua is on his second shirt - sawyer spit up on his first one and sawyer NEVER spits up.
bailey is on her second outfit. for the first hour of the morning, i couldn't figure out what the smell was. it was bailey's pants. she didn't "wipe" herself well (or, at all - GROSS!) gave her a bath and a new set of clothes.
sawyer got a bath after his spit up incident. and a new outfit. and a new sheet - just since everything else was clean.
rebekah left for school in tears. she's spent the last 3 days typing a project and lost the whole thing. her fault. she'll deal with the consequences...but so will i.

i am TRYING, TRYING , TRYING to find His peace. but it's hard to grasp with all that little stupid frustrating stuff. and i'm tired. and i didn't run this morning so i'm annoyed at that. and i haven't gotten anything done yet today because of the above. and i won't because i have to leave in a few minutes.

don't i sound fun to be around? :-)