when i had Rebekah, people would say things like, "Oh, she's so sweet", "there's nothing like it", etc, etc.
i would smile. but in my head i was thinking, "WHAT?!? are you crazy? all she does is cry! she's totally turned my life upside down! there is nothing sweet about this!"
it's taken me 4 kids. but i think i'm finally getting it.
a few minutes ago i set the older 3 kids up with play-doh (and we all know how i feel about that) then i went and got Sawyer out of his crib in the middle of his nap (i know, all you babywise moms out there are cringing) and sat in the rocking chair in his room and held him. i prayed for him. i savored his sweet little eyes staring up at me. so much trust. so little awareness of all that's going on around him. i sat there and enjoyed the SWEETNESS of holding a 1 month old baby.
my heart is heavy this week.
my little world is pretty perfect. i get that. i am so very blessed. and i try to pray each day that i would use the blessings God has given me for His glory (because none of this is my doing!)
but this is one of those weeks where the world and all it's ugliness and imperfection is more "in my face" - lots of suffering, heartache going on around me...to those precious to me. and i hate it.
and it makes me appreciate the sweetness of my baby. all he needs is milk every few hours and some warm arms to hold him most of the time. it doesn't get much sweeter than that.
Psalm 34:4 "I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears."
3 comments:
I have to agree. Im trying to soak up all this babyhood.
I am loving Jasper more and more daily. He is such a riot and I love the fact you stole some moments away with Sawyer to sit and enjoy him! I love Babywise, but I also love holding my baby... enjoy him!!!
hugs
I'm a babywise mom, but I think it's GREAT That you took advantage of the opportunity to savor Sawyer (that's a mouthful..) and just have a few moments together. So very special.
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