Monday, July 7, 2008

aching for other things??

so, as you know, (because i keep complaining about it) my body is PHYSICALLY aching to not be in this state any longer.

as i was driving home from the grocery store today, a thought struck me.

do i ache for heaven? or just to sit at the feet of my Savior as much as i ache to not be pregnant?

yes, there are moments and even days where i ache for heaven...because the sinfulness and evil in this present world are "too real" to me. but most days my life here on this earth are so comfortable and so easy that i don't spend that much time aching for His presence. i'm going to use this time...however much longer it is...to remind me of this. kind of like when you fast and the hunger pangs are supposed to remind you to pray for whatever reason it is you are fasting. every throb from the "lowness" of where this baby is sitting, every pain that it's little limbs cause from kicking me, every ache that my body feels from being restricted, when i feel them i will be reminded to ache for Him.

2 comments:

The Faircloth Five said...

courtney, that is an awesome attitude and reminder! you WILL make it through this!!!! and once you see his/her little face, it will all be so worth it. you already know that...i'm just reminding you. :)

Katy said...

GREAT perspective -t hat is exactly why you are such an awesome friend, wife, and mom. Because you have the eternal perspective to come back to!! You are down to just days my sweet friend - you're in the home stretch!!! My favorite "last" to wonder was always "is this the LAST time I'll have to clean the bathtub" before the baby comes!!