Friday, June 13, 2008

let it grow...

i've been reflecting a lot lately (who am i kidding, i'm always reflecting a lot!) on the last 10 years - since pat and i are about to celebrate our 10 year anniversary.

i am definitely a different person than i was 10 years ago. in so many ways. which, i think, is a good thing. i know and love Pat more. i know and love God more. and one of the biggest differences that i feel in my heart is being more aware of those that HURT and NEED. my eyes have been opened to things especially in the last few years that consume my heart sometimes.

i've had times of frustration about this. i'm 31 years old. if i had "known" about these things sooner i could have been helping sooner. but i've worked through that. it's the past. i can't do anything about it.

but i can hope that my kids know and hurt and care sooner in their lives. it's something i've prayed about. it's been the topic of multiple conversations between pat and i. how do we get them to look outside of themselves and their safe, comfortable little lives and really "get" it??

i had a glimpse this week that maybe, just maybe, we're getting through a little bit.

rebekah brought this home from school. and it was all i could do not to sit down on the floor and sob. let this grow in her, Lord. let it grow...


"If I had a million dollars I would give some to the people that do not have any money and buy some food for them and give some to my friends and give some food that is what I woudl do wiht a million." By Rebekah Cassada Faith (she can never get the order right!)

5 comments:

Kim Mattes said...

Oh courtney! How sweet! One of those precious moments and I pray that it does grow in her heart. We had a moment similar about 2 weeks ago. Holly did some extra jobs and earned $1. As soon as I paid her, she "wrote" a "reminder" on a sticky note and stuck it to the door to our garage (where I put sticky notes if there is something that I don't want to forget to take with us - since my prego brain remembers NOTHING!). When I asked about her note, she said that it was a reminder to get her dollar to take it to church to put in the S.S. offering! My heart melted! I was blown away at her generosity adn was fighting back tears the entire time! There are way too many things on her "list" that she is saving her money for but instead of buying something for herself she gave it to church. I pray that this kind of love and care for others continues to grow in all of our children's hearts! Have a great weekend!
Kim
PS Love the summer chart! I have our poster paper and marker out for our family to make one tonight after dinner! Thanks for letting me "steal" the idea! :)

Julie said...

That is so precious. I am so happy you blog and got me blogging so that we can remember these things. What a blessing. She has a special mom to watch...and it is so sweet, thanks for sharing!

Debbie said...

That is so precious and something you should keep forever!

Katy said...

How precious is her little heart. You ARE getting through to her Courtney - they hear and listen and pick up on all of these things!!! Good for you, Rebekah Cassada Faith! :) God is smiling on her and her sweet heart!!!

Megan said...

No words for that one. I would say that you and Pat are doing great at letting Jesus reach her through you. She couldn't have started off more blessed than with parents like you.