it just is. 7 1/2 months pregnant with my 4th child. and, for whatever reason, in much more pain than i ever remember being in. it's getting old. but i'm trying to keep things in perspective. this will pass. and it's a result of a HUGE blessing - one that many pray for everyday. i know that. but when i'm grinding my teeth as i walk around my house just so i won't burst into tears, i'm not going to lie and say i don't want to complain. but i try not to (pat might disagree...)
the kids are doing great. they are loving playing outside so much. i hate that i can't run around with them - i last a few minutes kicking a ball, or holding a jump rope, and i have to sit down. i hope they understand...or, if they don't, i hope they forget quickly once this baby is born and i can do more.
pat is amazing. so helpful. so patient with me. and always encouraging me to do less. which i need to hear. i'm so thankful for him. this is a sweet time for us. right before we have a baby and right after we have a baby always feels like a little "honeymoon" (well, not completely...not the physical part of a honeymoon - but the emotional part - which is what really "does it" for us women anyways, right?) - i'm enjoying that.
all of a sudden i have no appetite. sat down to dinner last night, ate 2 bites and couldn't eat anymore. it's wierd. i don't feel sick - just really don't want to eat. (although an ice cream sandwich sounds really good right now - and it's 9:40 am). maybe i just don't feel like anything "heavy".
sorry. not a very quality post. just getting down my thoughts for today.
2 comments:
I love these little "non-quality" posts Courtney - it lets me into your heart for the morning!!! You are in the last weeks - the hardest ones. Hardest physically for sure, hardest emotionally too. Yes, your kids will forget - life will resume back to normal and they will go on. You do SO much for them, that the times when you have to sit down and take a break are really few and far between in the BIG scheme of things!!! Keep listening to Pat - he does a GREAT job taking care of you!!! And what a great perspective to think about these weeks as such a tender time with him!
Hang in there Courtney. You need to rest as much as you can! You are always going and doing. It is about time that you take time for you. You don't want that little one coming before it's time, trust me on that one. I will keep you in my prayers. We are so excited to meet the little one.
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