**terrified

i was driving home from delivering dinners about an hour ago and my cell phone rang. it was my doctor. calling to talk to me about my sonogram "results." my heart rate immediately jumped through the roof.



she proceeds to say there are a number of "concerns."

1) there is a small uterine bleed - this seems to be of concern to me- no effect on the baby

2) there appears to be some fluid around/in the baby's head - could be a cyst - not good

3) it appears as though the baby's intestines are OUTSIDE of the abdomen. they actually develop this way initially and then go inside the baby



all of these things COULD be normal and will "fix" themselves or go away OR they could be cause for concern. this is what she tells me in her very sweet voice. and they have referred me to an office for those with "abnormalities" - it all seems so surreal! i listened, said thanks (what!?!) and hung up. came in the house, fed the kids dinner and now i need to go get them in bed. pat's at a "work dinner" tonight which is why i'm "talking" to this computer. i'm terrified. but...i have to trust. trust that God created this baby exactly how He intended. trust that God is with me and will give me the grace i need to face any or all of this. i will have a good cry once the kids are in bed.