when i get stressed...in some of the most stressful phases of my life...my body does 1 of 2 things:
1. i can't eat.
{this happened when i went to college. i literally couldn't eat for about a month. i would be hungry. get food. and not be able to eat. bizarre. because i LOVE to eat!}
2. i can't sleep.
{this happened when pat was going through the whole FBI process...and we had bed bugs in our house...and bailey was a baby...}
right now.
i'm not losing weight.
i kinda wish my body was doing #1.
but it's not.
it's doing #2.
i'm so tired.
i'm trying to hand all that's going through my head to Him. over and over. as i lay there for hours. and i truly think i do. but i must not. because my brain just keeps spinning and spinning.
He is carrying me through each moment of each day.
i feel it.
there's no way i could be doing what i'm doing these days except through Him.
but my flesh must be fighting it.
{and maybe Satan, too??}
He'll win.
i'm sure of that.
i just hope i can sleep again soon.
Thinking of you. Hang in there. I would hug you if we lived even remotely close to each other. :)
ReplyDeleteI am WITH YOU! Can really relate.
ReplyDeleteI am just now, finally beginning to sleep after not sleeping for too many nights, weeks.
You, and all the Cassada clan are in our daily prayers. I will pray for rest for you and a quiet mind/heart.
I'll be praying for you!!!
ReplyDeletebut I must say, that cant eat thing might be good for me! ;)
oh, i know (and HATE) the feeling of not being able to sleep. it's horrible. i'm praying right now.
ReplyDeleteI don't know your stance on this but I'm gonna just give it a go:
ReplyDeleteMy mom has this problem and so graciously passed it down to me - very regularly we can't sleep (various reasons, some of them for the reasons you listed)
Her doctor told her once to take 1/2 a Benadryl.
It's NON habit forming and it's only 1/2 a pill -
we don't do it all the time (I need it about twice a month), but it gets us over those bumps.
maybe not for now, but there's a little tid bit of info for whenever ;-)
praying for rest - in your heart and for your body.
we mama's NEED that!
praying for sleep.
ReplyDeletemuch love-
Jenn Tuskey Warren here. Wanted you to know that you inspire me! Matt went to the Sudan this summer, so we know the importance of water4Africa. Just ordered 3 ornaments for gifts-1 for him,1 for a friend waiting the their babe from Rwanda. And put 1 of your shirts on my own wishlist. I'm reading tons of blogs about adoption these days to hopefully help me discern God's will for our family. Your's is a fave. Peace.
ReplyDeletehope you get some GOOD sleep tonight!
ReplyDeletexoxo
Oh Courtney. I hear you. I'm praying for you, that the Holy Spirit will give you the peace that passes all understanding and rest for your body. He is making you stronger!!
ReplyDeletemaybe you'd sleep better in iowa! we have a couple things going on this weekend if you'd like to join us! :)
ReplyDeletePraying that God would allow you to sleep peacefully tonight & in the nights to come. I find that when I have a lot on my plate & that old mind just keeps racing the best thing for me to do is recite scripture. One of my favorites, most familiar one & most calming for me is Psalm
ReplyDelete23 I've put it here in the NLT version.
1 The Lord is my shepherd;I have
all that I need.
2 He lets me rest in green meadows;
he leads me beside peaceful
streams.
3 He renews my strength.He guides
me along right paths,bringing
honor to his name.
4 Even when I walk through the
darkest valley,I will not be
afraid,for you are close beside
me.Your rod and your staff
protect and comfort me.
5 You prepare a feast for me in
the presence of my enemies.You
honor me by anointing my head
with oil.My cup overflows with
blessings.
6 Surely your goodness and
unfailing love will pursue me
all the days of my life,and I
will live in the house of the
Lord forever.
Also read this tonight on Proverbs 31 Ministries.
Pray for peace that passes understanding… this is truly divine, & God wants you to have it.
Pray for the ability to rest physically & spiritually… this will help to keep your perspective clear.
Praying.........
praying for you...and knowing that He will be faithful...
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